I Wait For Instruction

It's not self loathing, it's called self knowing and I can feel the tension and anxiety they growing Fuel to the fire that's been raging in my furnace, I can't believe I'm here again.....either way I'll serve my purpose Something wicked This way comes I hope it thinks it's worth it Trying to grasp this state I'm in...I'm in a waking coma Breaking through the barriers, gotta learn what I'm supposed to.....here in the darkness, again without warning So I keep pushing forward through the Matrix..... A constant state of flux ever-changing..... In the past I've seen the future, now I'm presently confused.....Staring at the End of Time humbled and amused I hear the trumpets in there distance, initiating visions, information overload, adjust and keep on moving Evolving exponentially, I kinda feel like Lucy, this chaos that's within me is starting to test my patience (I got to find my balance......) So I wait for instructions, I wait for instructions, I wait for instructions, I wait I'm Madness Divine and I Know It..... Embrace the insanity and own it Flooded by the memories on quantum conscious levels, swimming through the ashes of the past and all it's devils (Lost and alone, feeling so helpless) At a stand still.....but still I'm standing, I'll Never back down from The Challenge I've been handed Since before the dawn of time I was chosen and commanded, I would try to explain but you wouldn't understand it (Hopefully in time you'll all begin to grasp it) Slipping through Dimensions the world seems distorted..... Life is endurance, learn lessons move forward.... the old test of time Can Be at bit unnerving ..... So I wait for instructions, I wait for instruction and wait for instructions