I Refuse To Sanitise

No, I will not sanitize Lest I am confronted By another dreadful day! I refuse to sanitise I will let myself die For fear That I will open my door On the morrow To let the news in, The suited man on my telly Impregnating my fears With impregnated death tolls No, I will not sanitise. I refuse to sanitise Or else I open my eyes Only to close them in disbelief, Despair massaging my ego Affliction reigning Fear rising Tears escalating Courage retreating Humanity falling No, I say, I will not sanitise. I refuse to sanitise For I fear that I will look at myself in the mirror And stare at my worst fear The man staring back at me Telling me, “There’s nowhere to run, Death sweeps the land Enveloping humanity With a heartbreaking Promise of no healing.” I want to be taken I want to close my eyes And never to open them My ears forever closed To the elegies that ring Behind locked doors I will not sanitise. For now, I will lock myself Behind my own whiff Of fading faith And wait For my day!