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I Never Find the Train

I am beggar 
I am thief 
I am Eve 

Buried by belief 

I am leader 
I am breeder 
I am Adam 

Narcissistic feeder 

I lie inside the doorway 
Unable now to die 
I see the tortured infant 
Yet still I cannot cry 

Was drafted for the Nam 
Saw sixty thousand dead 
They read the dead a psalm 
And then the worms were fed 

I fought for love of country 
Unable there to die 
The death of friends and comrades 
And still I'm asking why 

I've been a rogue receiver 
And a dark and doomed deceiver 
As I swam between two Islands 
In the sea of coral jade 
I walked through misty highlands 
In the land of heat and grief 
A soldier without purpose 
Who had lost his own belief 

I've lived so many lifetimes 
As I turned most every trick 
I lost my chance at right times 
'Cause I played the game too quick 

I'm buried by the burden 
Of my sorrow and my shame 
For I was once surrounded 
And surrendered to the game 

Sisters of sincerity 
Released me from all blame 
They know the fleeting nature 
Of this sad and fickle fame 

I've won some feeble fortunes 
That still fuel the fire and flame 
No matter now what happens 
I will find another game 

The words of every prophet 
And the hardships of the lame 
The lepers left untreated 
As their blood boils down the drain 

I seem to find the station 
But I never find the train 
And every destination 
Seems to find the pouring rain 

I'm walkin' through the valley 
Filled with sorrow and a tear 
I'm deep into a forest 
As the dark is drawing near 

Some soldiers at the front 
Some marching to the rear 
I'm treading holy water 
And I need to have you here 

Now listen to me sweetness 
It is time for me to leave 
My mind is moving far too fast 
For me to stop and grieve 

Remember that the Universe 
Is far beyond a creed 
And man is just a minute part 
Of Universal seed 

I know I've done my giving 
To my friends and kindred dear 
It is the part of living 
That can make it all so clear 

I'm off to find the truth 
Before I lose my youth 
And if a truth be found 
It's through your patience so profound 

And now we've said our last goodbyes 
Yet not a tear falls from my eyes 
But just before I go to sleep 
Will be my time to weep 

For love and long emotion 
Is the potion for devotion 

Look at me 
Pretty woman 
Can't you see 
Look at me 

Your magic 
Moved the mountain 
And this seeker 
Now is free 

Look at me 
Pretty woman 
Can't you see 
Look at me 

For I no longer 
Want to die 
I'm man enough 
To cry 

Look at me 
Pretty woman 
I am free 

Copyright © Tom Mcmurray | Year Posted 2011

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