I Loved Too Deeply

I once told myself I was incapable of love, Because I could not love myself. That was until I met you. For months my diet consisted of not eating more than 300 calories, Hours of exercise, even if I felt like I couldn't go on anymore, There were the daily purges after all of that. I skipped lunch every day just to see you walk the halls. I fed into my delusions that you wanted me, I dreamt of you every night, Pretended my pillow was you, I felt like I've known you all my life. I was in love with you for three years, So in love that I risked my life, just for a chance that you would love me back, And even after all I went through just for you to look me, You never even knew. Now you're happy with someone else, And I'm just here, bruised and broken. I don't know if I'll ever be in love with someone else again. But maybe I can start by loving myself.