I Loved and I Lost

its been a long time coming a train full speed ahead watching in slow motion as you witness the beautiful collision left behind burnt memories of the past somehow you took a hold of my heart with eyes closed i followed you anywhere everywhere till thoughts of you consumed me love that burned with a fiery hot passion glowing vibrant shades of red even in the dark i still sought you seeking this love we made tore you are confused seeking attention i must of not gave old flames that you tried to re kindal was it a mistake loving me ? did you chose wrongly in doing so second guess who held your heart was it me or was it always her? these things ill never truly know wasted time i no longer can get back in waiting for you to show me you cared that your changing , growing whom shall the blame lay favor to is it you or it is it i? for falling in love with my heart open wide ....... i no longer feel your grip on me you broke the spell maybe you where only try to free me and you too from our fatal attraction casting shadows in my mind full to the top i feel as i might break anger makes no ones peace yet it seems to be all i seek to love you or to hate you it seems like is all i have left i wanna fall somewhere in between love and hate and gain a lesson yet lose my lover .. for i am glad i have loved you with this its no regrets whats left behind is my mess to pick up and your to walk away from