I Love You Anyway

I held on all that time, believing your lie, Thinking you were using me deep down inside, When I questioned things you reassured me and made me believe, That this whole time you were in love with me, Just one question after I sacrificed my whole life, And the response was I don't know if I want to be with you for the rest of my life, After all the love and work and attention I gave, Telling you and showing you my love every day, My heart plummeted to the floor in disbelief, And even after that response you're still telling me you love me, While I sit by his side watching the disease taking him away, Deteorating his brain while I sit there and pray, Loving him more than myself I will not leave, He asks me to stay but I'm not who he wants just what he needs, And so I ask myself why I still love and care, He fooled me yet I'm still there, At the nursing home every single day, Holding his hand while numbing my own pain, I don't believe a man has ever truly been in love with me, So I accept it wasn't meant for me, I feel the pain sometimes but I push it away, Because God has blessed my heart in many other ways, And so how can you miss what you never had, And I'm thankful for everything I already have, All my family, children, and friends, And the most important my God to the end,