I lost myself

Anyone please help me I lost a precious thing. Please... Please help me to find it. I am searching it everywhere but I don't find it. Please help me. I lost myself. Always fight for fame and wealth and finally I lost myself. I lost my childish heart. Can anyone please give it back to me? Why I don't cry now for any small thing? What changed me? Why I don't like to play with mud like my parents? Always wanted to play in the rain, wanted to play with frogs and fishes, wanted to sing with birds and to hug the trees. Why my desires are changed? Why I don't want to do it now? I lost myself. Please help me to find it. Want to listen stories from my mom again. Want to learn cycling with my father again. Want to fight with my siblings for one extra chocolate. I want to go back in my childhood just for one moment. I want to go back that time when I was actually happy not like now. I lost myself. Please help me....