I Looked For You

I looked for you You weren’t there I looked for you And you weren’t there I looked back at what started at me Instantly Panic consumed me I looked all over that room for me In drawers, closets and even under bedsheets Retracing my steps I went back Back through my puberty I see the you in me But who am I truthfully My truth keeps eluding me Don’t push your views into me Who pushed the world into me I’m tipping over It’s only right I feel empty I looked for you In all the places you used to hang Within all the faces you held a gaze Rummaged through your fits of rage Asked past lovers Would they ever love the same They hadn’t seen you But recalled the flame I called your name I thought I called your name A voice so faint Fragile and strange Whispered through my soul I am you… I am change