I Look Forward 11 of 11

I was in command at the helm when too much demand overwhelmed couldn't find understanding felt pressure declined as a man thought myself lesser became linked with mental health failed to deal with what life dealt, raw deal? Maybe, still I feel I may have reordered my way of handle I put myself out in the wind like a candle destined for downfall and though I was surrounded by people there were none when I reached forth suppose I could have preached and forced or just seen the bigger picture head office catch the fish bigger but not seen as an option I figured, decision failure, but isolation is lonely going it as the only still I don't like to moan was a one man army once charming turned angry not shocked I was abandoned alone is my only understanding, but know, just one man woman or hand could have changed the battle from damned still I experienced life as a victim but don't claim to be one had to much fight and competitive juice in the system made the situation linger and won the ratio, getting the better still could have done better, lost the war won the battles tough luck from all angles but this is my first clear reflection of a chapter of my life from ten years ago, people say let it go, I say no, but let it leak I will and slowly forget whilst taking the lessons as profit I got knocked down stayed down for a decade, survived yet decayed, until now when I move from it, this is the dawn, finally I've got it, understood and sorted now I look forward, the world looks good as a man with understanding standing after damning demand and abandoned had the upper hand but feets don't fail me, lungs don't empty, heart, beats, pounding, brain untangled, all once strained but a heavenly strain sees me go again, I look forward as I self applaud, being no longer appalled or overruled, a liberated warrior has risen from a warring prison stronger, enlightened to a sun rising, I kept fighting, let's go forward, let's go forward