I Look For You

I look for you, I look for a cliff, so you can pull me up. I look for heartbreaks, so you can mend them. I look for rebellion, so you can frown at me. Heck, at least you’ll be looking at me. I look for you, In the depths of despair, In the cracks of toxic relationships In the torment of my failed dreams. In the vague I love you In the scattered heart pieces on my floor. But you haunt me, Every memory i have of you haunts me. But I look for you, I still look for you. In the men i love, In their blood shot eyes In their aimed fists, In their intimidating screams, In their deteriorating, pernicious Envious, overbearing, Grasp. I look for you, The only man who broke my heart Before i even knew i had one. But Papa, i still look for you.