I Know

I Know I know that I am confused my feelings and emotions seem distant from me. I know that I care; but my past experiences have blunted my expression. I know that I was meant to be more - and I'm not. I know that I question love or infatuation - which is which? - where am I? I know that I am uncertain of your feelings; frustration - I know that sometimes I wish I could end it all, right now, but, what if? I know I'm almost at the end of my rope with frustration, anger and depression. I know that my life (or lack of) is tightening that rope. I know that I am uncertain of everything - even you, even me, even us. I know that forever seems to be out reach. And I know that I don't know why...