I have loved you this way

It is as clear to me as on a freezing day During the night Then as day seeps in Your features are as bliss to me So as I play with silence like it's a toy Thinking This life is elusive to everything Not just this So I watch Then silently leave And pray you wake up Without feeling loss The loss of me It's not easy A constant struggle it seems But there lingers A constant hope in me That one day I'll be worth it Worth the pain Of you giving up Her I have always loved you this way A shadow forever on your face It's an extra necessity It's the only way We have known us Cramming all three of us in one life Curling around square corners However uncomfortable it gets I learnt to share you She's laughs at this Looks at me Pulls back her lips Revealing razor sharp teeth Embedding them in your neck Sucking you dry Spreading her venom through your veins She has you when sleeping She'll have you when you die There is a sadness to my life A tree trying to grow behind a larger tree Never getting enough light Some days are spent holding us together Pulling you back Some days are spent dreaming Of better days Without depression Named her