I Have Forgiven You and This Is Why

May 8, 2006 - Monday i have forgiven you and this is why Tearing at my flesh you hesitate none, at the taste of my blood you dig deeper into my skin, the bitterness feeds your corruptness, the terror renders me to a stagnate state, the darkening haze which you enticed to surround me will clear, I will battle and struggle until this pollution around me is nothing but a distant memory behind me, I no longer wish to hate you, I only want to find you and tell you even though my life misses a beat every day I wake, I still exist, and when I do locate you do not fear I will embrace you kindly and let you know something bigger than the story of how I came to despise you in the first place has offered me peace, the scheme of life has revealed to me an impossible dream as a tangible reality, the sacrifice, the compassion, the traits of humanity which play the role of outcast in this modern society, though they go unnoticed they are still there, we idolize the violence we put destruction on pedestal, we claim to be self- righteous when indeed we are more self-indulgent nation, we accept despair as a curse but if we had no pain we would have no appreciation for life and the pleasures it brings to each beholder, as the seasons change in our journey to the end we either grow older and realize there is no coincidence coz we all play a role which affects anothers pathway or we turn colder with age and still without knowing it we are serving our fate not because of destiny but because our own choices we are completing a plan that has been designed by human nature, and the path i haven chosen to follow is forgiveness, though i may not be able to forget i can let go