I hate how I remember you

I hate how I remember you That's why every time you come to mind I shrug it off saying you no more So why revisit the past while you ain't here Somedays I wish you were here So that I'd not have to remember you Cause I'd chose to just ignore your call instead So that you feel how it felt being ignored as i was growing I hate how I remember you Cause I don't have any good memory of you It's just memories of you shouting at me A reminder that I'll never be enough Somedays I wish you were here So that I speak out my mind But I did that already and you' didn't listen You made it all about you like you always do I hate how I remember you For we had great memories But all the fun times are fading Because of all the anger I have towards you For when you died you died with my image too That's why no matter how much I try It would only feel like I'm speaking bad of the dead While it's true that you were vile, it's just that I saw that look more often I however hope that you resting And if its my constant anger keeping you restless Then I guess you'll be restless for many years to come Cause I don't have an off switch to pretend that I can get past all of it The PO£T