I Had a Thought That Night

I must be unthinkable.
You walk so many roads
Yet I never cross once.
Your mind is always racing
And your mouth is always in motion.
Yet I never get to see or hear 
Who you truly are.

I must be unthinkable.
I walk beside you every single
Dreaded day
Yet you are too high up 
To see me.
I'm afraid of heights.
Why is it me that has to do the climbing?

I must be unthinkable.
I speak
And I sing
So loudly
That it hurts
Yet you are unable to 
Really listen to this voice of mine.

I must be unthinkable.
I ache for you
And I hold my head for you.
Yet your eyes are attracted
To the glittering objects.
Not my own,
For they have been tossed around
By careless hands.
Who knows how much longer I'll last.

I must be
Unthinkable.
I have tried and failed
Many times
To look you in the eyes.
But our contact lasts
Only
Seconds.

I must
Be
Unthinkable.
Even if you think
Of me
For a moment,
You've never shown
To me
That I am a thought.

I want to tell you
That I think of you all the time.
I want to tell you
That you're always shining.
I just
Want to tell you
That I care for you.

If that is unthinkable
Then do you
Even 
Truly
Think?

Copyright © Sarah Yaelle | Year Posted 2017

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