I Guess

I don’t want to feel this way As if you took all of the air out of my lungs when you left. I fight through it everyday, And you will never know how hard I wept. You stole the only light I had Leaving me in an world of silent nothingness. I did everything you asked Upon my worst enemy, I wouldn’t wish this loneliness. I miss the way we’d laugh And how we’d comfort each other when we would cry. I miss the way we’d sing and dance And the way you’d make me laugh without having to try. But I hate your empty promises And your cold, meaningless, and beautiful lies. I was nothing but a distraction But for me, you were the stars to my night sky. For two years my love was yours But now I know your heart was never mine. For you, I’d crawl across the earth and more And for you, I know I was just a way to waste your time. I was never the object of your desires Not even someone to whom you could tell the truth You were a boy trying to build a man’s empire Acting as if the world couldn’t see you were forever hooked on your youth. You know, I guess I’m glad we’re not together Just embarrassed that it took so long You taught me through your mistakes that I deserve better I don’t have many regrets but you were certainly something I did wrong.