I Fought To Get Out of Bed

I fought to get out of bed today Its nothing new I fought every other day. You see When eyes look at you But eyes don't see what they do Eyes only see everything but you Eyes destroy who You Are. I fought to get out of bed today Its nothing new, Its nothing I haven't fought before You see When ears hear your pained words But words choose to say what they want to say You give up, There's no hope anyway. I fought to get out of bed today Its nothing new, Its nothing I haven't fought The day before You see When hands touch you Despite your protests You begin to detest Every touch after that Body scents that never left Hands All over my body I shiver Lips quiver You won't see me cry I keep quiet Close my eyes "Breathe" Hands Running all over my body Learning contours That where never yours to learn Hands on my skin -It burns You see Hands know that its wrong But hands want what they want anyway So I just wish them away Carry on Like it's a normal day. I fought to get out of bed today, Its nothing new, Nothing I haven't fought Every other day. You see Nose runs down your neck Inhaling your scent And you try not to smell the same You don't want to be the one they blame, You see They'll inhale your scent, Etch it to their body Worship it like you're holy "Obsession" You think He smiles and gives you a little wink You feel weak In the pit of your stomach And you wish so much That this is the last Knowing tomorrow you'll Wish for another "last" I fought to get out of bed today Its nothing new, Nothing I haven't fought the day before You see A tongue that takes what it wants Tastes what you've tasted Steals your tongue You close your eyes for the taste you can not bare "Its all just a nightmare" You see The roughness on his lips Will make you wish You never knew the meaning of a kiss You'll wish You didn't have he's unapologetic lips on yours Forced... I fought to get out of bed today, It's nothing new, Nothing I haven't fought the day before My senses destroyed By your lust, your games And I'll never be the same For you see I fought to get out of bed today, Its nothing new, Nothing I haven't fought before ...