I Don't Understand

I don't understand it And I never understood it How vehement disdain can beat in the chest And how vitriol can dance in the mind with unrest The cold, blank stares that quickly turn to a fake smile when I turn and our eyes meet Too late, that crooked smile can't disguise the dark, desolate eyes that bitterly speak Yes. They speak to me in ways I can no longer ignore Their frigidity penetrates my warm heart; my heart feels, so it knows how they abhor Why? But how could this be the reality? When I thought we were loving friends and family Fantasy, what a painful fantasy to live And all because love is what I wanted to receive and give I never understood it And never will I understand it