I Don'T Understand

What is life and why am I here? Why is life filled with nothing but rage and fear? Couldn't ask my momma until she finished her beer. So I sit here and wait trying not to shed a tear. I don't understand what it's like to be happy. I don't understand what it's like to not be so sad. I don't understand what it's like to be able to trust a human being. I don't understand what it's like to live life like a normal person. The feeling of waking up not knowing if I'll survive the day is scary. Not understanding why people can just walk around all happy and merry. This world is messed up. My life is messed up. I can't get out. I think I'm stuck. I don't understand what it's like to be happy. I don't understand what it's like to not be so sad. I don't understand what it's like to be able to trust a human being. I don't understand what it's like to live life like a normal person.