I do not love you

I don't love you We can say I don't know you We can say I haven't given you a chance We can say that maybe love will grow if we are patient We can say there is hope But as of now, I don't love you What we can't say is that I don't know what love is I know what love is I know that feeling of saying I adore you and it not feeling like what you mean I know what it's like to look into their eyes and say I miss you even though they're not going anywhere I know what it's like to watch their mouth say words you can't hear because you just long for those lips to be against yours I know what it's like to laugh with a person and instantly want their body against yours I know what love is I have felt it I have denied it I have challenged it I have mourned it And yet I long for it I wish I loved you But love does not come when it is summoned Love is not something that will arrive in the mail in 5-10 business days Love does not listen to reason and timing In fact, it's incredibly inconvenient and sometimes a burden When I look at you, I see a friend I see the hope in your eyes and it makes me want to be hopeful too I see that you long for me to fulfill your fantasy And for moments at a time perhaps we can pretend love is there But I am so sorry I do not love you