I didnt use to

Ever since I was little you've been trying to fix me.. forcing the puzzle pieces to fit, only to break me more n more. Building me up, just to tear me down over n over again... I didn't use to be insecure until you repeatedly told me I was over weight at age 13, and still do to this day. I didn't use to hate myself until you screamed at me every day even over Dad's hospital bed.. I didn't use to use to have depression until you told me multiple times a day how it's my fault the family is broken.. I didn't use to have anxiety until you told me my depression was just in my head... "Happiness is a choice" was your favorite.