Debbie Knapp Poet Narrative

I Cry For You

The tears I shed are not tears of pain but of grief for you my love. As life would have it or fait at least; you lost at what could have been. Really what should have been!
I know what you truly deserve and it's not me or the poor background of which I've come from. Your friends have managed to find wives with wealth and retirement. While all you can do is carry the load as you always do.
Do not think for an instant my heart isn't hurting; knowing I'm not good enough, never have been, and never will be. I can never catch up in life and will never be an equal. At no time is this far from my mind.
I used to think love was all that mattered but now I have grown up and realize how much more there is to life. A fine line drawn in the sand from the beginning has set us apart and down separate paths. Together yet not as one; this was never to be for our lives were directed by poverty and riches.
Was I selfish to want you? I did not understand then as I do now. Now knowing what I know, I cry for you my love. You could have carried on finding that special one to share all of you with. No lines drawn, no poverty or riches to separate. No tears shed or grief knowing ones' not good enough!
What's ahead as each day passes I wait to see. God has a plan, everything happens for a reason. A new job with more money, yet not even this erases the line. Not for my life of such little means even this can't bind a heart set on a different path?
Debbie Knapp

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John Posey June 4, 2013 at 6:40 PM I can never know the real depth of your pain. I feel drained after reading this. Just know that you are loved by an Almighty God who will never forsake you... Take His hand and write love songs for Him. Then... You will see Him smile..... Jake Debbie Knapp June 6, 2013 at 5:16 AM Jake ~ Yes, God has and will always come first in my life. I know the true riches of life and love. Thank you my friend. ~ Debbie K.

Dan Kearley May 30, 2013 at 10:51 PM I know not what to say to this??? Hmm? How about....You can spend a lifetime trying to gain wealth, but at the end of it all. You can look around and say what do I really have? Was it worth it? Tell me your thoughts. :o) Debbie Knapp June 6, 2013 at 5:20 AM Dan, My friend money can't buy happiness only things. If you do not love the one you are with there will always be a longing so you have nothing no matter how much money or how many things. I for one want one to spend time with enjoying life, making memories. It cost nothing to hold hands, cuddle, walk along the beach and so forth. I choose love my friend. ~ Debbie K.

Seren Roberts March 28, 2013 at 1:42 PM Oh Debbie, what can i say, except that as you say everything is for a reason. I feel cheated out of a "happy life" maybe it wouldnt have been so, thats one thing I wont find out. For you living each day I am so sorry....Seren Debbie Knapp March 28, 2013 at 3:08 PM Seren, Thank you. I do feel everything happens for a reason and I am happy in my own way. You are a kind soul and I wish you lots of love in life. I am thankful for life in which I can give it's not about me but what I might be able to do. -- Your Friend Always Debbie