I Chose No Other Option

I chose no other option, But to make it all undone. To give up on my effort, Which I had put with all my heart. I chose no other option, But to shatter my dreams. Life could become a magical realm, It could have all felt real. I chose no other option, But to let fear win. To make words powerful enough, Which eventually made it tough. I chose no other option, But to disappoint my mom. Who gave nothing but love and care, I still made her life unfair. I chose no other option, But to listen to society. The people who could never encourage, Were enough to break my courage. I chose no other option, But to make my life undesirable. My heart became weak and unable, To survive the unknown sufferings of life. I chose no other option, But to see life ebbing away. The flickering lamps of hope, Just turning off entirely. I chose no other option, But to feel the tear drop falling. As I slowly close my eyes upon the world, Lifelessly lying. I chose no other option, But to make my god cry, Who gave his entire try, To give me what he had planned. I chose no other option, But to see my God's hopeless face, Who had chosen for me the highest place Filled with honour and grace. I chose no other option, But to kill myself.