I Cant Now Disappear

i cant now disappear disapper into my broken black backwards. i catch it, yet it runs to and under candle light to years ago to the angst, to hate the self-loathing, even to the laughs, smiles untouches conspired and half committed. for my failure to follow through for my testing of the Fates exile i received to wander the shades for Eternity until a weave was woven that changed my fate. i rose restored from the great below to the great above and patiently waiting for me there, my one true love