Karolina Grimaldi | + Follow Poet |
Free verse | + Fav Poem | Comment | Email | Print |

I Can Take One More

Please believe me when I say I still can take on this pain 

That's slowly eating me inside, killing me, making me numb 

I'm not ready to end this road of mine Lord I'm begging you I can't let go 

Please I know you can hear me don't take me away, it's too soon 

I still got children, their hearts will break They need their mother by their side they're too young to go through something like that 

I still have my husband, he doesn't know how to not depend on my love, he won't know how to not be alone 

Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more 

I'm sitting here taking on this chemo

Taking in all these pills with hope that one day it'll end and I'll be cured 

Especially for my little girl, she's eight,  she won't remember me if I were to leave 

I've got seven children, we're very close they've seen me at my worst, they won't understand why it had to end like this 

The gaining and losing weight, how bad my self esteem got the best of me

When my hair was no longer long, my eyebrows no longer visible and getting sick all the time, they're so strong 

Please Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more 

Can't you hear me? I still got my babies they won't remember me when I'm far gone 

They won't remember my hugs when I pull them close and hold them tight 

My kisses that showed all my love, to actually have someone to call mom

Give me a couple more years 

Let me see them grow old, I can't do this, my babies, they're my world 

Lord I know you can hear me, I can take one more 
As I'm laid to rest I think of my kids, my husband

How devastating this is for them, they prayed to not have to go through this 

To know I won't physically bet there through the good and the bad, it kills me 

But I promise to always guide you guys in your toughest times 

I'll be there when you need me the most even when you swear I'm not there 

Lord I know you did this mainly for them, thank you for ending my suffering and allowing me to protect them in many ways 

I know they feel like I'm not there

But I'll always be by their side until the day we'll reunite, I promise that 

-Mom

Please Login to post a comment