I Am Not Who I Am

i don't believe in anything. i don't believe in a god. i don't believe in real love. i don't believe everyone has a soul mate. i don't believe in the power of prayer. i don't believe everyone receives karma. i don't believe in dharma or reincarnation or any sort of afterlife. i don't believe people meet for a reason. i don't believe all is fair. i don't believe in war. i don't believe that people have good intentions. i don't believe words. i don't believe in promises. i don't believe in polygamy. i don't believe in marriage. i don't believe in true peace. i don't believe in death. i don't believe nutrition labels. i don't believe in hate. i don't believe people who don't show emotion. i don't believe in the church. i don't believe the media. i don't believe that anyone can stay forever. i don't believe in abandoning loved ones, although, at times i don't believe in staying in places i don't feel needed. i don't believe anyone could romantically be with only me. i don't believe drug addicts. i don't believe boys want more than sex. i don't believe in our government. i don't believe there is just one satan. i don't believe i can see the good in everyone anymore. i don't believe my own emotions. i don't believe cannabis is bad for my health. i don't believe alcoholics. i don't believe in friends that turn into snakes at night. i don't believe in keeping quiet. i don't believe in love at first sight. i don't believe actors. i don't believe my generation will ever get to experience the tenderness of simplicity, or the feeling of contentment with just one lover. i don't believe there was ever a time where relationships weren't plagued with infidelity. i don't believe in candy. i don't believe cats. i don't believe in eating animals. i don't believe all men are rats. i don't believe i'll make it to forty. i don't believe sadness is weakness. i don't believe everyone has a purpose. sometimes, i don't even believe i am human at all. i am not who i am. i don't believe in anything.