I Am Here

I AM HERE
by
JOHN M. ARRIBAS


I am here exactly where I should be
Directed and positioned solely by me
There were snares and forks in the road
That only I unknowingly had to decode
It was learn on the go, on the job training
A daily enigma of what might be waiting

Everything that happened was caused by me
By action or inaction, in  retrospect, easy to see
By choices accepted or allowed to die on the vine
Left to the fancy of others, when they were mine
I unconsciously directed every step on the path
Unaware if I’d be savoring joy or chilling wrath

It was always a mystery that I had to solve
It was a constant dilemma for me to absolve
Breaks in the action gave time for thought
Calculated planning often resulted in naught
I can’t complain, where I find myself today
I was the author directing, every step of the way
 
I am certain now that I was “Captain” of my ship
I am exactly where I was destined, to be on my trip
I am fully responsible for all my achievements 
I take complete blame for all my disappointments
Aware or unaware I was managing my play
I can not accuse anyone for where I am today

And yet, there are times when I rigidly question
Am I the architect of events in this dimension
There may be forces beyond my comprehension
Am I a singular version or a previous extension
Were all my actions originally cast by me
Or am I simply following a program laid out for me

Now that I am approaching the final inning
Is this the end? Or another new beginning

Copyright © John Arribas | Year Posted 2019

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