I Am
I am tired of asking myself if you're ever going to make your way back.
I am tired of using other people as distractions to keep my mind off of you.
I am tired of catching myself when I'm at the bottom.
I am tired of writing the same letter, but never sending it.
I am tired of obsessively checking phone, expecting a missed call from you.
I am tired of pretending to be okay.
I am tired of feeling and appearing so pathetic.
And I am tired of the way I act when you're not around.
As if I am someone to be around.
I am tired of the way the sky looks when you're not here.
I am tired of the way I want him, because you're not here.
I am tired of letting myself go to depressing songs.
I am tired of not being able to focus on my actual life.
I am tired of looking at pictures from a while back and saying to myself, "when things
were good."
I am tired of going back.
I am tired of remembering .
I am tired of wanting something I know I'll never have.
I am tired of coming up with excuses.
And other than that, I am tired of writing this letter to you.
So take this, and run with it.
Because that is what you always do.
Copyright © Autumn Page | Year Posted 2011
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