Hypothetically Speaking Vol.Ii

Ya know like any other Christian I go thru my hardships & troubles and I start to question this tug of war, this spiritual warfare of right & wrong it's the same old song wit me, I give my all and from the one I give my all too I don't even get half. I wonder how many couples can say imma livin testimony to what you going thru thats actually happily married and made it last, I'm tryna hold fast wit prayer but this woman is nothing but a cake and with each layer follows more deceit not many good men know their worth but I do, I be damned If I put up wit a cheating spouse the game of cat & mouse been ova and now I gotta keep looking ova my shoulder because I can't trust her. How am I suppose to make it thru da storm when I can't even stand on my own two my outside image says I'm cool but on da inside there lies a man unconscious in a pool of blood from his broken heart. What did I do wrong to deserve this fate. I repent my sins, pray, stay honest, don't cheat, then I start to think does this really have anything to do wit me. I mean Job was one of God's beloved servants and he was taking thru da test, Lord God I'm not tryna say I can't handle it I know marriage ain't easy but why is it this hard, I'm not arguing with your will or decision making skills because despite it all everything works for the good of God