Hyper Vigilant
this surface thin brittle
teased tinkling ice...
memories interwoven...
heavily draped wisely
entrapped...
delicately arranged...
fragile inner-childhood fear...
bemused...many triggers...
continuous happy tiny moments...
interrupted...by casual slaying dread...
trifle chilly moments...echos
to this very day...her spirit...hid
under her bed...in her wardrobe...
the child hid to play...
her triggers aware alert intuitive...
she trusts her inner rescuer...
the source will sound the bell...
survival mode she does well...
wears her finest mask to hide
from hell...
this life she accepts...no longer
denies...she stokes her flames
deep inside...
her lover knows of her pain...
a pain this deep one cannot
change...
...I will fight to send them back...
...to silence them...with my emotions
intact...
without this threat of demise...
happiness evades...and divides...
this life...I strive...this entered damage...this enigma...I carry
within my chore...
my conscience...my survival will
not allow me to ignore...
this truth...your failure...your fears
my fears...I have chosen to confront...
yet my fear chooses to elude...
...for this mother daughter love
you gave me...I traded it all
for truth...
...for I did not want the same...
...I did not want to ever become
like you...
Copyright © Eileen R. Kelly | Year Posted 2007
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