Hurting Love

I struggle from day to day in my own kind of way Unwanted thoughts creep in as I try to keep them at bay Why is it different when I want to love others I get scared that they notice my past being uncovered When I get close to the one I love, I get numb and pain When you don’t know what to expect, what do you gain Being touched is a beautiful thing, But the feeling of hurt comes in again After comes tears that you can’t seam to control That’s when you start to feel that your all alone Being able to love is a powerful thing to have Mine feels broken like stones rolling down a mountain Or like trying to hold water from a fountain All I want is for to have love and passion Where it’s tender and wanted and ever so kind To touch and feel every moment, not the hurting kind How I feel can be very different with pain to fear The sort that you hate and never go near I struggle at times just to be free, so I can be me My wants and needs are the same for all But mine seam to find this very tall wall All I want is to try and mend my broken heart I am finding it’s impossible as it tears me apart