Anna Elias Poet Free verse

How to Love?

I’m sorry,
I didn’t mean to leave so suddenly.
I really miss him
and I still care about him.

I was just scared
that he was upset with me,
and instead of talking about it,
I left.

I feel ashamed about it.
I don’t want him to hate me.
I don’t want him to think
I left because I didn’t care.

I just don’t like affection.
I don’t like love.
I don’t like relationships.
They make me uncomfortable.

I’ve always felt uncomfortable with them.
I don’t know why.
Every time someone gets close to me,
part of me just wants to leave.

But with him,
I actually felt happy.

And that’s what makes me feel worse,
because I really did care about him,
and I really did like being with him.

I just can’t stay.

It doesn’t feel right to me.
It never does.
Even when everything is good,
I still feel like I need to get away.

I wish I knew how to explain it better.
I wish I could just be normal about love
and not feel so uncomfortable with it.

But I can’t.

So I left,
and I’m sorry.

Maybe one day
I’ll understand myself better.
Maybe one day
I’ll stop being scared of love.

Maybe one day
I’ll learn how to love.

But right now,
I just don’t know how.

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Brady Battram September 15, 2026 at 1:15 PM Wow. What a heartfelt and beautifully written poem. Maybe you should reach out to this person. Personally I wouldn't want to leave it on bad terms Anna Elias September 15, 2026 at 5:07 PM Oh I don’t know, I’m quite embarrassed really. I ruined our friendship because of my own avoidance issues. I really hope they could forgive me for that