How Pained Ive Been

you didnt think itd come to this did you. you never expected how pained ive been from the words shoved down my throat choking me silent making tears flow from my heart. the one you scarred, with your scorching black words. you didnt expect youd be leaving me for my death or that your ropes would hang me and put a barrel in my mouth. no it never would have come to this. because it wasnt your fault and it never is because youve forgotten your words in my throat.