How Long Before You Leave Me

I am back
But I’m not sure how long
You’ve hurt me so bad
Don’t know if I’ll ever 
Recover
Not fully.
I am always on the edge of my seat
Like a bad
Horror movie.
Will he, won’t he
Am I gone, or am I good
Hate me, love me
Or is it simply indifference?
I am always waiting
Always wondering
Always frightened
That you will leave me forever.
Family, family, family
Means nothing to you, does it?
Every time you say good night,
I wonder if it means goodbye,
It’s never been a question
Of if,
But rather when.
It’s been 
So long
Since you have said
I love you.
Should I just cut my losses
Save myself the trouble
And leave
You
Before you leave me.
Goodbye?
I know I won’t.
You know I won’t.
Guess I will just let you kill me slowly.
I love you?
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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Wegenast Avatar
March 2, 2011 at 2:54 AM
Great Job! A pleasure to read.
Mehta Avatar
February 20, 2011 at 2:57 PM
You have penned powerful thoughts of depression and dejection, Francesca
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