How Does It Feel To Be A Man?

How does it feel to be a man? Let me resonate the ways. I can't hide myself from the depression and anxiety Not needing time where I knew nobody and their barking words And the pain of a man goes unnoticed. I face the tides of total silence, and I had to log off As the password changed, and I wandered off the streets They took my kindness and threw it disgustingly back into my face. It hurt me to leave but was killing me to stay. Avoiding the times that I cried with liquor bottles on the floor Not allowed to feel, be real, explain, express as I lose the upper hand. Calling me pathetic, trash, weak always broke me into my knees As the page of my story got ripped out and thrown in emotional flames But in my honesty, a sense of hatred isn't an option Only God helps me with my grief and healing.