How can I express myself

How can I express myself when every time I do you think I’m arguing. How can I express myself when you don’t listen? How can I express myself when you’re not there? How can I express myself when I don’t trust you? How can I express myself when you don’t love me? How can I express myself when you don’t care? How can I express myself, knowing that you lied to me? I feel that the only way for me to express myself to you is by phone or by text or by me just writing it on my notes or posting it on social media because I can’t even express myself to you face to face. That I wonder too myself is this is how even how it should be to express myself. A lot go though my mind that I just wish I could just express it you but like I say how can I express myself when every time I do you think I’m arguing. How can I express myself when you don’t listen? How can I express myself when you’re not there? How can I express myself when I don’t trust you? How can I express myself when you don’t love me? How can I express myself when you don’t care? How can I express myself, knowing that you lied to me?