Hole To the Center of My World

I’ve dug a hole all the way to my inner-self Beyond the sedimentary sentiment Past the fossils of my past life And I’ve finally broke through the hard layer of emotions I’m sure the treasure I’m seeking is hiding in my sub-terranian subconscious I just need to know where to look But as my spirit rises and my journey’s boon glistens before me An ungodly hand grabs the Golden idol and drags it To the even deeper level of my mind cavern The place where all the local tribes say the great beasts live And the rope back to the surface falls Slithers down next to my feet And remains motionless like a child afraid of a beating As if it knows what this means to me I fall to the ground crushed There’s enough food here to last me a while, I don’t know how much I could stay right here and risk starvation Possibly a team will rescue me Do I continue? The legend says that untold powers will be bestowed on the one who completes the quest And finds the golden form of his body. But the demons are also prophesized Where death isn’t just painful but everlasting Incarnate fear devours you for eons before the death you’ve fantasized finally arrives Stuck in the dark My eyes adjusting to the painful lack of light I wish you were here with me So we could intertwine to a higher level of harmony And complete the quest together One divine man and goddess Opening our eyes to reality Becoming the transcendental deities foretold by The Elders Irony is what hurts the most It’s a barbed blade thrusted and twisted Not into my body but into my presence I haven’t completed my goal I have achieved the opposite I have earned living in fear of infinite pain and suffering All while being in the vicinity of omnipotent potential I cup my head in my hands Scream at the nonexistent faces I see Mocking me and pressuring me to see my faults and fall on my own climbing tool I will continue in spite of them I start to perceive the soothing decisiveness of it all Either I succeed or I drop short But this adventure must have an end.