Holding Onto What May Never Be Again

I Think that I Saw You Today, Or at Least a Version of Who You Once Were. I am Trying Hard to Hold Onto Memories that Once Captured the Beautiful Experiences Shared, that Now Seem to Slip Away With The Passage of Time. I Don't Know if I Should Embrace The Present, Enjoy Each Day and Cherish The Time Left, Or Recollect the Past and Remember What May Never Be Again? Your 60th Birthday was a Milestone That Seemed to Hold Such Promise. Retirement in Five Years, Travel, and the Beginning of the Golden Years. Now It Appears to Be the Beginning of When It All Started. You Were Here to Change My Diapers, Give Bottles, and Provide the Nurturing that Every Child or Infant Needs. Now I am Here To Play a Similar Role, Though I Wish it Were Not Left to Me Alone, For I am One of Six Adult Children. Should I Try To Make It Easier On You, By Not Pushing Too Hard, Or On Me By Encouraging You to Remember The Past that Is Now Lost? Maybe This Process Makes It Easier To Let Go? I Don't Know, I Only Know It Hurts To Hold On Like This. I Wonder IF I Let You Go, Will You Even Notice? I Know that If You Were You, Then You Would Care. I Just Know that This is a Long and Lonely Road. Sincerely, Your Son, Author Paul Cumberbatch (November 3rd, 2020)