Holding On To a Memory

I've tried to start a new chapter and turn the page I thought moving on from you would be easy My pride got in the way because you decided to leave me I'm holding onto a memory that I need to erase Growing up I never allowed Hugs near me But I'd never felt like this, so I think the Love scared me I wanted to give you all of me, but naturally I'm reserved I smile and act like I'm good but actually it hurts I pushed you away then had the nerve to act shocked when you left But no matter what, your secrets will be kept I'm still adjusting and growing, hopefully one day I'll find peace I hope one day we'll become close again or at least start to speak My parents never gave me a hug or attention so I struggle to accept it elsewhere Would you consider me weak if I admit that I felt scared I can't go back, but I can be honest even if it's too late No matter how many chapters I write, yours will always be my favourite page Even though it went wrong and caused me the most pain when you left No matter what you're something I'll never regret So until we speak again, or until we never do You'll always be close to my heart and there will never be another you I've tried to start a new chapter and turn the page I thought moving on from you would be easy My pride got in the way because you decided to leave me I'm holding onto a memory that I need to erase