Histrionic Intimacy

Do you ever get the feeling ya being watched Do you ever get to sleep if ya dream of demons creeping up Do you measure yourself by the strength of your faith that you keep in god Have you forgotten the meaning of what it is to be deep in love Is it a problem it seems it's the meaning that you forgot Should it be dropped are we even when my feelings turn mean and they erupt Will we stop speaking for the reason we're feeling lost and lose feelings from not speaking yet keep strings with the feeling they're needing cut Was feeling touched like I'm blessed but the feelings gone Was being conned by the gods now I'm bleeding bronze Staying tough wanting this honour to be enough Seeing how cross I got yas the reason ya don't keep in touch I'm seeing whats wrong with me frequently from these Ill stunts Seeking out some help from the people who think I'm nuts You think I've stopped, forgave and forgot but you forget I remember everything that we ever lost its what we had and we tossed I think about every day replaying it from the top wanting to stomp it out of my brain It drives me insane look at the lunitic who's losing his mind it's a shame Man this isn't a game you'll find I'm playing but my chips are at stake You needed me around so often so locked me in a prisoners cage until the building blocks of our foundations started splitting from weight These dangerous grounds are quaking so now I'm drifting away Because if I had stuck it out with you and things didn't change from laying a new foundation to begin again I'd be crazy I've seen the pain when it wasn't hidden away, stripped or reshaped and the holes you dug were escavated like you were digging our graves Maybe one day you'll see it differently and see I didn't rejoice I remember listening to you when you were different with me when I had an opinion to voice I know you'll think about it differently then clearly know I hadn't a choice because why should I be killed by something that I can not destroy.