Hidden Hurt

Hidden Hurt Awake in my bedroom,rigid with fear The man i call Lover is coming so near No sweet gentle touch is waiting for me But the vile look of anger is all i can see. What did i do wrong? Screams loud in my head Was it somthing i did or somthing i said? The blood pulses hotly inside my ears The sweat rises sharply alerting my fears I smile at him calmly,though its all a front He twists up my face and recieve my first thump. The fist keeps on coming again and again I beg to myself to keep strong,feel no pain But the pain overtakes and my head begins spinning He's kicking and biting, no end, no beginning A knife he gets out and holds up to my throat And then i drift out, taken away by a boat to a beautiful place in my dreams; i presume Im no longer there in that terrible room. A part of my mind has saved me for now I cant know the reason, i can't tell you how While my body was going through tortuous hell My heart and my soul were keot safe and well. The beating has stopped and he looks at me crying I say its alright but we both know im lying He says that he's sorry, that i made him do it My eyes dead and hollow, i just agree to it Too weak to object, self respect in the dirt I just grin and bear it My deep hidden hurt.