hhow Many Times Did i Try??

Wishes Hot air of the mouth Desires Baseless notions riddled with doubt I wait for you I watch for you Brave in life, coward in love Send me a sign Beacon of life from Above And so is Below Where feelings fester and grow Beneath the surface of something intangible Beneath the truth is forbidden fruit Beneath my smile is longing for you Beneath my joy are desires untold Beneath my skulls fantasies unfold How I long How I wait Another helping on my dinner plate The indulgence, the greedy This want, lust consumes me Or is it love? I ask of nothing I expect even less I sit in silent stress Your life flows by No but I'm waiting, watching Hand in hand with time As a patient soul, one could argue it is fate One could argue I deserve another helping on my dinner plate Or one could not One could decide it is my time to wait and rot One could accuse me of the greatest sin of all Expecting the love of another without showing mine I stall.