Here Without You

Looking around our old apartment, Is like visiting a place from my childhood, Familiarity hanging on the remnants of a memory, Your favourite seat by the window, Where the sun would refract off the glass, And kiss across your eyelids turning them gold and red, Now it’s just a space, Frustratingly vacant, Everything here reminds me of you, And it hurts, A deep aching hollow pain, It’s endless, The memory’s taunt me, I don’t want to be like this, To wallow in self pity, I don’t want your death to be all about me, Because you made me so happy, Now I feel like I’m betraying that, Live life you used to tell me, The tattoo on your shoulder - “Love is living life to the full.” Now your not here, Your nowhere, And I’d rather be no where with you, Than anywhere without you.