Here With You

June 27, 2015

I wish I knew what I should never know
As I fantasize impossible dream come trues
Setting myself up for disappointment 
And still hoping for the sake of temporary enjoyment
Here with you—shuddering sorrow creeps…

Here with you, suddenly I miss you more than I can bear
How you effortlessly take me high, then drop me
I miss the excitement of “I-can-lose-it-all” . . .
Walking on coals with the flames long put out
My feet cagily walking upon the black dust of your placid presence
The premonition of thought without you
The tortuous dissatisfaction as I picture “what-could-be”
I hate it. . . .but . . .I don’t. Want. You. Here. . . .

Though once you are gone, I will hate myself again
That is what I fear

Some things never change at all . . . 

While I am here. . .here with you, 
Try to imagine my side
Try to picture for a moment “what could be”
And how much I just want you close to me. .  .
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Ellison Avatar
July 29, 2015 at 4:16 PM
I have few words to describe the beauty of your lines! I am in awe! You write with such sincerity and conviction straight from your loving heart! One-of-a-kind is how I would describe you... dearest one! Love, Jack xxx
Breidenthal Avatar
July 29, 2015 at 4:56 PM
You just make me beam, Jack... I have few words too, but you know that I appreciate everything you say!<3 ~Laura
Makama Avatar
July 9, 2015 at 6:54 AM
This is an awesome write. I appreciate the true message of your candid expression.
Beaufort Avatar
July 5, 2015 at 7:35 PM
This hurts me to read because I have been there. Anyone not staying with you is a dork!! A double dumb-ass. It's now meditation time for me. The nicest let down I every had, BTW, was when someone kind told me that the chemistry was just not there. Anyway, off to mend thoughts with the universe. If you get a strange feeling, you will know why.
Breidenthal Avatar
July 5, 2015 at 11:59 PM
"Anyone not staying with you is a dork!! A double dumb-ass." I love you Duke. So much XD ~Laura
Kilmer Avatar
July 5, 2015 at 5:16 PM
The ultimate let down after the brilliant high of love. It blinds the soul and leaves everything wondering what happened. You don't have to let it go. Believe in love and it will follow wherever you go. don't give up on love Laura~Kilmer
Breidenthal Avatar
July 5, 2015 at 5:46 PM
thanks dear....i won't....its who i am........~Laura
Nunez Avatar
July 3, 2015 at 7:06 AM
This reads like lyrics to a song, dear Laura. Soft, sweet and gentle melody. Your thoughts?
Breidenthal Avatar
July 3, 2015 at 6:08 PM
This poem was dedicated to one of my closest friends, Kim. : ) Perhaps one day it will be made into a song. Thanks for the kind visits! ~Laura
Bordner Avatar
July 2, 2015 at 8:53 PM
To be close to you must be incredibly beautiful Laura...I imagine your warm beauty in silence...J.A.B.
Breidenthal Avatar
July 3, 2015 at 2:50 AM
Thanks dear.. you're one of the sweetest people I know! I always feel wonderful reading your work and your comments. <3 I never express my gratefulness enough.. ~Laura
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