Here and Now

late in the early morning I fade in between realityanddreams forgetting what panics me indulging in what pleases me I rock between dayandnight the ending’s beginning the beginning’s end the present is upon me and it terrifies me what will I do with now it is here it was there it will be later but it shadows my thoughts now the here is fear unknowing indecision what to write on the next page the next criticism the blind looks the unconcerned passiveness the here and now are all that should concern the me and forgotten are the failures and the faults the memories fade and the new developments surprise they are my concerns at other times not now; not here