Debra Squyres Poet Free verse

Heartbreaking Decisions

Walking a tight rope without an umbrella
feet unsure of the next steps to take
heart heavy, mind uneasy, can't look down
equilibrium off kilter, yet still watching ahead
focusing on you alone, selfishness set aside
as days with you dwindle before our eyes

 
Tears must flow in our private darkness
anxiety we set aside in your presence
smiles in place, presenting a happy face
wanting always, no more or no less than
what we believe is best for you, our father
as days with you dwindle before our eyes


Grieving for you while in your presence
a luxury we dare not bring to the foreground
decisions on what is right and wrong
overloading our senses with the magnitude
of what lies ahead, daily now.. saying our goodbyes
as days with you dwindle before our eyes
 

Second guessing decisions causing pain
struggling with what we perceive is best
trying to place ourselves in your shoes
knowing you can no longer reason choice
we place your life before the Great Physician
as days with you dwindle before our eyes

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Nathan D. March 8, 2013 at 8:35 AM extremely intense and sad

Doris Culverhouse February 27, 2012 at 7:18 PM Therapy is the perfect thought for this work of your heart....I feel your loss. I too am dealing with end of life issues with my mother and father-in law....very sad!!

Nette Onclaud February 25, 2012 at 12:28 PM misty-eyed with this heartfelt, beautiful gem, debra... when we let go, we receive more of the light... wonderful!..:) huggs! Debra Squyres February 25, 2012 at 12:33 PM As usual, I'm finding that writing helps me through the troubled times. So, when I'm inspired and have the time...I write.

Rhonda Johnson-Saunders February 22, 2012 at 7:59 PM I have tears after reading this. Your poem brought to mind my own father's passing. He was very sick and too young to die. Although, our time and God's time is not the same. We are never ready to say goodbye. You are not alone. We are blessed to have had fathers in our lives to miss. So many kids these days do not even know their fathers. I thank God for mine. Hugs and Blessings, Rhonda

Robert Johnson February 22, 2012 at 3:20 PM I know all too well the toll of the bell. When the love in your heart is alive. But when morning comes and we hear the drums. Not everyone's going to survive. Theres not enough sunshine to dry up the tears. Just love and time and yes, possibly years. May Gods love hold you dear.

Carol Sunshine Brown February 22, 2012 at 1:02 PM What wonderful poetry you all are sharing with us today. I have enjoyed reading yours today Debra. I hope the rest of the week finds you with much inspiration in your heart and you will continue to share your writing. Love, Carol

Anne-Lise Andresen February 22, 2012 at 11:09 AM We are born into this earth in pain and leaves it in pain. Life is not easy. And we are never quite ready to say goodbye, because it is so painful to lose the one we love. - Big hug and alot love Anne-Lise

Lucilla Carrillo February 22, 2012 at 6:51 AM This is one great piece of poetry. Through out our lives we will encounter these kind of decisions. Thanks for sharing. Lucilla

Tracy Edwards February 22, 2012 at 6:32 AM Follow your heart Deb and you cant go far wrong.. Its not easy smiling when your crying inside... Lovely poem full of raw emotion.. xx