Heartbreaking

My heart is breaking in a million pieces. Why did you have to shatter it to bits? Were you just marking your time or Are you actually willing to call it quits? I feel like my flesh has been ripped From my very bones, and all the while, You are acting as if nothing has happened. My face shows nothing, not even a smile. My world is collapsing all around me, And you sit over there uttering not a peep. Am I supposed to forget all our years together? Or this nonchalant facade must I upkeep? Do you even hurt? Are you wounded? Are you incapable of simply feeling? You broke my walls down a long ago And made me believe I was worthy of healing. Now, I just want to scream and wail. I want to rip my heart out of my chest And give it to you to take on your way, As you forget what has transgressed. I knew there was something amiss, Yet you let go and gave me your bombshell. Your confession was not what I was expecting, And once again I am in an agonizing hell! Why so cool? Do I not matter? Of love, are you even capable? Am I such an awful wife, that You made this agony inescapable? I do not want to give up us, I want to know what you disparage. Are we over? Truly and utterly done? Do you want to save and salvage this marriage? © Kristy De La Keur Scoville