Heart Thoughts

Clouded by thoughts of doubt
Wondering what things are about.

Sifting through the layers of mental sand
Looking to Understand.

Bringing things to a head
Feeling Feelings of dread

Not sure what I am wanting
But wanting something 

Having real answers to bring peace of mind
Finding out that really I have been so blind

The battle is not over, feeling the waters receding back
Knowing that we have took a step forward, now knowing all the facts

My heart is full of pain, to many things, to many times
The dread of starting all over again. 

I just wanted to love him, I just want him to care
Nothing else, just acceptance, but it is seem it cannot be there. 

I need to stop this roller coaster ride
I need to have some real peace inside

So I walked away, I made the break
It was hard to do, but it was for my sake

Time will tell if I did the right thing
The pain of this love sure makes my heart sting

But I have heard it before and I will hear it again
If he belongs to me, he will return again.

But not like before, single minded and sure
He will know beyond a shadow of a doubt why he is here
Copyright © | Year Posted 2006

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