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When I pull away, you push I’m silent, like a single finger to my blush lips motioning “shush” I feel like a caged tiger craving freedom and lovers flesh a prisoner of your personal horror I must digress I loose myself, into my mystical, magical, mind to keep this empty agony, from burning into each minute, of my lifetime my body, feels frozen to your touch your kisses, cannot melt my hatred toward your soulless lust I am strong from within, I cannot, will not let him win, A real live porcelain doll I have turned in Two lines forming a cross, hold my inner eye for the Lords love catches my tears as I cry when your fists, strike my body a bloody mess, you leave my lie punishing me for your insecurities and false lies a chance to escape you, this dream has me hypnotized each day of mine, ends in silent sorrow and begins, with prayer filled sighs For love, does not beat you behind backs and then smile in your eyes using such smiles to disguise to the outside, false facial expressions keep things trill I pray, for the strength one day, to fight my prisoner back perhaps kill