Head Above Water

VOICES IN MY HEAD TELLING ME TO BRAKE FREE FROM THE STRESS THAT I ADDRESS DAY BY DAY SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY I WAS FINE HAD IT ALL TOGETHER BRAVING THE WEATHER THE STORMS WERE MY NORMAL WAY OF SURVIVING EACH OPSTACAIL WON BUT LATELY TO RUN DOWN TO FINISH TIRED OF MY OWN DICTIONS TRYING TO STAY ABOVE WATER PREVENTING NOT TO DROWN UNDER FOUR FEET OF WATER ASKING SELF WHAT REALLY MATTERS THEN OR THE NOW FOR THE THEN IS DEAD AND GONE THE NOW IS PRESENTLY VERY MUCH ALIVE THE OLD SELF LINGERS IN HOPES TO RECOVER WHAT WAS TAKEN AND FOREVER GONE TRYING TO KEEP UP WHEN THE LIGHT IS HALF BRIGHT WITH NO SIGN OF GUIDANCE NO DIRECTIONS NO INSTRUCTIONS THROWN IN MY OWN DEMISE STILL STRONG TRYING NOT TO GET IT WRONG STEP BY STEP HEAD STRONG LONGING TO GET BACK TO THE NORMAL WAY OF THINGS DIFFERENTLY PUT TO FIT THE NEW ME HALF THE PERSON STILL THE FIGHTER NOTHING HANDED ALWAYS STRIVING TO GET BY WITH LITTLE TO NOTHING WAITING ON THE DOOR TO OPEN WINDOW OF BLESSINGS SWING WIDE OPEN AND FIX ALL THAT IS BROKEN BRING A WAVE OF HOPE ENOUGH TO STAY FLOAT I KEEP A FIRM HOLD ON THE ROPE TO KEEP FROM DROWNING WITH EACH STROKE COMES A WAVE OF OPTICALS NOT TO DEEP TO DROWN IN ABLE TO SWIM AROUND HEAD OVER WATER ABOVE ENOUGH TO BREATH IN A DEEP BLUE SEA OF EMOTIONS THE FIGHTER IN ME STRIVES TO SURVIVE THE WAVES THAT TRY TO DROWN ME WHILE THERE IS ALWAYS A WILL ILL FIND MY WAY BACK WITH MY HEAD HELD HIGH STRONGER POWERFUL UNDEFEATED OVERCOMER ACHIEVER